RETURN OF SATURN
lyrics
EX-GIRLFRIEND / SIMPLE KIND OF LIFE / BATH WATER / SIX FEET UNDER / MAGIC'S IN THE MAKEUP / ARTIFICIAL SWEETENER / MARRY ME / NEW / TOO LATE / COMFORTING LIE / STARING PROBLEM / SUSPENSION WITHOUT SUSPENSE /HOME NOW / DARK BLUE
i kinda always knew i'd end up your ex-girlfriend whoa
i kinda always knew i'd end up your ex-girlfriend
i kinda always knew i'd end up your ex-girlfriend
i hope i hold a special place with the rest of them a
nd you know it makes me sick to be on that list
but I should've thought of that before we kissed
you say you're gonna burn before you mellow
i will be the one to burn you
why'd you have to go and pick me
when you knew that we were different
completely
i kinda always knew i'd end up your ex-girlfriend whoa
i kinda always knew i'd end up your ex-girlfriend whoa
i hope i hold a special place with the rest of them whoa
i kinda always knew i'd end up your ex-girlfriendand
i'm another ex-girlfriend on your list
but i should've thought of that before we kissed
your wildness scares me so does your freedom
you say you can't stand the restrictions
i found myself trying to change you
if you were meant to be my lover i wouldn't have to
i feel so mean i feel in between
'cause i'm about to give you away
i kinda always knew i'd end up your ex-girlfriend (for someone else to take)
i kinda always knew i'd end up your ex-girlfriend (am i making a mistake)
i hope i hold a special place with the rest of them (all the time that we spent)
i kinda always knew i'd end up your ex-girlfriend
and i'm another ex-girlfriend on your list
but i should've thought of that before we kissed
i'm another ex-girlfriend on your list
but i should've thought of that before we kissed
am i a nice girl?
i'm about to give you away for someone else to take
i'm about to give you away for someone else to take
we keep repeating mistakes for souvenirs
and we've been in between the days for years
and i know that when i see you i'm going to die
i know i'm gonna want you and you know why
it's gonna kill me to see you with the next girl
'cause I'm the most gorgeously jealous kind of ex-girl
but i should've thought of that before we kissed
i kinda always knew i'd end up your ex-girlfriend whoa
i kinda always knew i'd end up your ex-girlfriend whoa
i hope i hold a special place with the rest of them
(i hope i hold a special place, all the time that we spent)
i kinda always knew i'd end up your ex-girlfriend a
nd i'm another ex-girlfriend on your list
but i should've thought of that before we kissed
i'm another ex-girlfriend on your list
i should've thought of that before we kissed
simple
KIND OF LIFE
for a long time i was in love
not only in love i was obsessed
with a friendship that no one else could touch
it didn't work out i'm covered in shells
and all i wanted was the simple things
a simple kind of life
and all I needed was a simple man
so I could be a wife
i'm so ashamed i've been so mean
i don't know how it got to this point
ooh i always was the one with all the love
you came along i'm hunting you down oh
like a sick domestic abuser
looking for a fight oh
oh and all i wanted was the simple things
a simple kind of life
oh if we met tomorrow for the very first time
would it start all over again would i try to make you mine
i always thought i'd be a mom
sometimes I wish for a mistake
the longer that i wait the more selfish that i get
you seem like you'd be a good dad
now all the simple things are
simply too complicated for my life
and how'd i get so faithful to my freedom
a selfish kind of life
well all i ever wanted was the simple things
a simple kind of life
a simple kind of life
a simple kind of life...
you and your museum of lovers
the precious collection you've housed in your covers
my simpleness threatened by my own admission
and the bags are much too heavy
in my insecure condition
my pregnant mind is fat full with envy again
but i still love to wash in your old bathwater
love to think that you couldn't love another
i can't help it you're my kind of man
wanted and adored by attractive women
bountiful selection at your discretion
i know i'm diving into my own destruction
so why do we choose the boys that are naughty
i don't fit in so why do you want me
i know i can't tame you but i just keep trying
cause i still love to wash in your old bathwater
love to think that you couldn't love another
on your list with all your other women
but I still love to wash in your old bathwater
you make me feel like you couldn't love another
i can't help it, you're my kind of man ooh
why do the good girls always want the bad boys
so I pacify problems with kisses and cuddles
diligently doubtful through all kinds of trouble
then I find myself choking on all my contradictions
cause i still love to wash in your old bathwater
love to think that you couldn't love another
share a toothbrush you're my kind of man
i still love to wash in your old bathwater
make me feel like you couldn't love another
i can't help it you're my kind of man ooh
do do do...
no i can't
help myself i can't help myself
i still love to wash in your old bathwater
ooh
in the morning i wake up and in the night i sleep
and since the day i was born repeat repeat repeat
brought to this life born to this life where was i before
nonexistent not at all will i ever know
today's my birthday and i get one every year
and someday hard to believe but i'll be buried six feet underground
subconsciously motivated natural instinct
alter nature for the pleasure orthocycline
flirt with conception slow the cycle will the baby grow
social tradition interference control control control
today's my birthday and i get one every year
and someday hard to believe but i'll be buried six feet underground
i'll be dead and gone no longer around
spinning spinning before i can recall
all the unknown chemicals control the cycle
the successive generations from dust to dust
burying my grandma then give birth to my own daughter
today's my birthday and i get one every year
and someday hard to believe but i'll be buried six feet underground
today's my birthday and i get one every year
and someday hard to believe but i'll be buried six feet underground
i'll be dead and gone no longer around
i'll be buried six feet underground
can you tell i'm faking it
but i want to be myself
a counterfeit disposition
can't be good for my health
so many different faces
depending on the different phases
my personality changes
i'm a chameleon
there's more than one dimension
i can fool you and attract attention
camouflage my nature
let me demonstrate
makeup's all off
who
am i
the magic's in
the makeup
who am i
if you bore me then i'm comfortable
if you interest me i'm scared
my attraction paralyzes me
no courage to show my true colors that exist
but i want to be the real thing
but if you catch my eye can't be authentic
the ones i loath are the ones who know me the best
my makeup's all off
who am i
the magic's
in the makeup
who am i
the makeup's all off
who am i
if the
magic's in the makeup
then who am i
magic's
in the makeup
but i
wanna be the real thing
but the magic's in the makeup
and i want to be the real thing
ooh my makeup's all off
who am i
oh yes i'm guilty
for leasing myself out
not ready to go up for sale
can't seem to give it up
stubborn so selfish
i'm showing off the worst in me
the return of saturn
assessing my life
second guessing
i'm
full of artificial sweetener
my heart's been deceitful
it's all artificial sweetener
i'm faking "i love you"s
you're forcing me to
oh you really deserve love
i want to love you
but
i can't seem to find myself
my wilting effort
our
progress report
i'm
only sure that i'm not sure
and i shudder
to be
honest
who's behind it
all now
who's the
author
i'm full of
artificial sweetener
my heart's been deceitful
it's all artificial sweetener
i'm faking "i love you"s
you're forcing me to
re-read re-write redo undo
i'm stuck on this page
i was born two weeks late
is that why i hesitate
i'm on the fence
push
me off it
i want to be
on your side now
and
keep a promise
i'm
full of artificial sweetener
my heart's been deceitful
it's all artificial sweetener
my heart's been deceitful
i'm faking "i love you"s
you're forcing me to
i'm faking "i love you"s
you're forcing me to
i'm faking "i love you"s
you're forcing me to
i'm faking "i love you"s
you're forcing me to
i can't help that i like to be kissed
and i wouldn't mind if my name changed to mrs.
this is one side my conventional side
an attraction to tradition my vintage disposition
my sincere architecture and i want to cook him dinner
but i'm more indecisive than ever and who believes in forever
who will be the one to marry me
a girl in the world barking up the wrong tree
a creature conditioned to employ matrimony
crumbling continuity i pick up the pieces
the ceremony makes me zealous as the past quickly ceases
fear from being neutered i'm now prude now defensive
quickly i'm altered and tempted by new love only rented
do you believe you'll marry me
you might be the one to marry me
ooh
back lookin' back
lookin' back at me
i'm
not how i used to be
take me back take me back into history
diamond ring tie me down just like it used to be
tie me down how it used to be
who will be the one to marry me
who will be the one to marry me
how i used to be
not
how i used to be
lookin' back lookin' back at me
i'm not how i used to be
take me back back into history
diamond ring tie me down just like it used to be
marry me
marry me
forever and ever and ever and ever
happily ever after
happily ever after
happily ever after
happily ever after
resented
something
old, something new, something borrowed something blue
rented
apprehensive
here comes the bride all dressed in white
here comes the bride all dressed in white
something old something blue something borrowed something new
it's pretty when i'm faithful
ooh and ever ever ever
for ever and ever...
happily ever after
you
and me, you and me...
don't let it go away
this feeling has got to stay
don't let it go away
this feeling has got to stay
and i can't believe i've had this chance now
don't let it go away
yeah
new... you're so new
you... you're new
and i never had this taste in the past
new... you're so new
my normal hesitation is gone
and i really gravitate to your will
are you here to fetch me out?
'cause i never had this taste in my mouth
oh you're not old
and you're not familiar
recently discovered
and i'm learning about you
new... you're so new
you... you're new
and you're consuming me violently
and you're reverence shamelessly tempting me
who sent this maniac
'cause i never had this taste in my past
oh you're different
you're different from the former
like a fresh battery
i'm energized by you
don't let it go away
this feeling has got to stay
don't let it go away
this feeling has got to stay
and i can't believe i've had this chance now
don't let it go away
why am i so curious
this territory's dangerous
i'll probably end up at the start
i'll be back in line with my broken heart
new... you're so new
you... you're new
and i never had this taste in the past
don't let it go away
this feeling has got to stay
don't let it go away
this feeling has got to stay
and i can't believe i've had this chance now
don't let it go away
and i can't believe it
can't believe it
can't believe it
can't believe it
don't let it go away
this feeling has got to stay
don't let it go away
new... you're so new
new... you're so new
TOO LATE i
just want to take you away from everyone and keep you stashed under my pillow and then i'd take you out simply for my own pleasure and wear you when the occasion's special then i'd put you on like a diamond so i can sparkle and be the envy of my friends i'd probably hold the leash that i'd have you on so you can't stray and follow me around all day it's too late now i
don't think it can fade it's too real now fulfillment just adds fuel to the blaze compulsion has stained me i'm nervously cradling my young love without known limits love like a butterfly cupped in my hands i peek in to see beauty trapped confined it flutters then it leaves behind colorful dust to remind me of the special times we spent but of course it has to leave my clutch but enough's never enough to make a dent it's too late now i
don't think it can fade it's too real now fulfillment just adds fuel to the blaze and in time it will end and there really isn't hope for the two of us but right now i give in it's too late now i
don't think it can fade it's too real now fulfillment just adds fuel to the blaze fulfillment just adds fuel to the fulfillment just adds fuel to the blaze (it's too late, it's too late...) COMFORTING
LIE
i started out on the wrong foot now i'm not myself
i am jekyll i am hyde found this place to hide come seek me
oh so up and down so back and forth so insecure
can't get this taste out of my mouth swallow it down pretend
and hold it hold it all in
let it build up oh build a bomb
and blow it blow it away
and clear it all out just end it
i'm just a normal person without those problems when did it change
admissions so embarrassing i'm on the verge of tears again
i'll hold it i'll hold it all in
i'll let it build up oh build a bomb
and blow it blow it away
and clear it all out just end it
oh look i took the band aid off did i take it off too soon
hysterical confession my big courageous move
don't gasp at the predictable a comforting lie can't last
preordained checklist of this awkward love it's so sad
and hold it hold it all in
let it build up oh build a bomb
and blow it blow it away
and clear it all out just end it
and sort it sort it out
oh just give it back no thank you
and toss it toss it away
eliminate just give up
i can't decide this tug of war
i'm feeling weak yeah
STARING
PROBLEM
my eyes are so rootless
they wander and i follow
i keep starin' i can't stop it
i know i shouldn't but i can't stop it
oh such a cute girl
i'm so jealous
i wish
i looked exactly like her
oh what's it like to have that body
i'm gawking while i wonder
s t a r i n g
i can't
stop staring
s t a r i
n g
i can't stop
staring
with my envy i
steal glances
resentful fault finder
this peek-a-boo's become a problem
predisposed cat fighter
s t a r i n g
i can't
stop staring
s t a r i
n g
i can't stop
staring
s t a r i n g
i can't stop staring
s
t a r i n g
i can't
stop staring
s t a r i
n g p r o b l e m
s t
a r i n g
i can't stop
staring
s t a r i n g
i can't stop staring
oh s t a r i n g
i
can't stop staring
s t
a r i n g
i can't stop
staring
s t a r i n g
i can't stop staring
s
t a r i n g
i can't
stop staring
my divorce from dependence
that's when you found me
i was too soft
and we
always were in trouble
odds stacked against us
and trouble's what we are
we get so far
and then
it just start rewinding
and the same old song
we're playing it again
suspension without suspense
suspense...
now that
i've murdered
your
inspiration
and i
forced you off
do you
hate me
do you want
revenge
well i want to
call you
but i won't
we get so far
and then
it just starts rewinding
and the same old song
we're playing it again
suspension without suspense oh
the pessimistic protection plan
moderation loving
i've
been hardened by the circumstance
we knew this was coming
this was coming
we get
so far
and then it
just starts rewinding
and the same old song
we're playing it again
suspension without suspense
oh we get so far
and
then it just starts rewinding
and the same old song
we're playing it again
and again
suspension
without suspense
oh
intentions without intent
but i don't want the love we have to end
i'm hanging out with me
and you're a vacant chair
a chosen compromise
this space we rarely share
and if you lived here you'd be home now
so whatcha givin' up for me
and what shall i give up for you
aimless expectations passing by
if you lived here you'd be home now
if you lived here you'd be home now
whoa
and to make it real
i need to have you here
i need to have you
i need to hold you
barren wasted heart
neglect of normalcy
and if you lived here you'd be home now
and to make it real
i
need to have you here
i need to have you
whoa whoa
it can't be
sincere
unless you
spend time here
i
need to see you
supervision is what i need
some consistence and tangibility
some casual light days
part of the furniture
i want to take you for granted and see you regular
so whatcha givin' up for me
and what shall i give up for you
the separations tired
it's been too long
whoa
and to make it
real
i need to have
you here
i need to
have you
whoa whoa
it can't be sincere
unless you spend time here
i need to see you
i
need you
i need you
i need you
i need you
if you lived here
if
you lived here
if you
lived here
come home
now
DARK
BLUE
i'm tired from
exploring you i'm
sorry you've had some scary days i'm lucky they had me on a leash exposing sometimes you frighten me and it's too bad you're so sad i wish you could have had what i had i'm loathing most of your history hesitation but then you siphon me yeah your potential well i'll indulge in that violent timing explains the aftermath and it's too bad you're so sad i wish you could have had what i had and it's so sad it's too bad maybe i can make you feel better oh maybe i'm supposed to make you feel better i want to comfort you i want to comfort you i want to comfort you ooh unlike you i had it easy you're dark blue stained from previous days and you're so sad it's too bad i wish you could have had what i had and it's too bad you're so sad maybe i can make you feel better i'm sorry 'm sorry i want to comfort you i want to comfort you you're dark blue